The first week..

So my first week of being a full time work at home mom did not go as well as planned. For some reason I found myself floundering about. I woke up each morning with a sense of trepidation. I felt kind of lost and confused. I though perhaps at first it was because I just hadn't fully accepted my new position. As the week ended I realized that I couldn't go forward until I got rid of my anxiety. So what was causing my anxiety? I felt like I couldn't go forward until I had cleaned up my space and made it less stressful. My house was a mess. My organization was all over the place and I couldn't stop feeling overwhelmed. SO this weekend, I cleaned my bedroom. It wasn't the whole house but if you had seen it you would understand. For three years, my bedroom was no longer mine. My kids have turned it into a dirty, messy and disgusting toy room. Candy wrappers, food, cups, plates and broken toys all over the place. It caused me great distress every night as I climbed into bed.

Well, no longer. I swept, cleaned, scrubbed and shampooed. I rearranged the furniture and reorganized until it no longer looked like the same room. Then I sat the kids down and told them the new rules. No more using mommies room as a playroom. Last night I crawled into bed and took a deep breath and realized, I could think once more. It was more than just cleaning a room. It was decluttering my life and my thoughts. It felt really good and I think I may have even giggled a little. It was liberating. I am looking forward to this next week.